Wednesday, May 07, 2008

sleep

Well now my family is blogging, so I feel like maybe I should start up again! I guess it has been over a year, maybe time to post. :) I don't even know if this still works.

Sleep seems to be the bain of my existence right now. Getting those I want to sleep to sleep when I want them to sleep so I can sleep! Why is it so hard? I thought if I did "cry it out" techniques sleep problems would magically disappear as a reward for having to sit through that misery. But while it definitely helped, my babies are still having problems. So I feel jipped.

Maybe dealing with the nap gambles and heartaches are just one of the things that God has us go through so that at the end of the day, we love our babies that much more. I've thought about that philosophy a lot. If babies were easy, we'd probably still love them because how can you not love something that cute? But I think maybe not as much. After sacrificing sleep, hot meals, your favorite clothes that are now spit-up stained, your body shape, time with yourself, time with anyone else, your cell phone that now has a fuzzy sound due to too much baby slobber, did I say sleep?, at the end of the day, its pretty hard not to love ferociously that little being who you know is worth all the sacrifice and much more.

Anyway, I think that the key to my problems might just be consistency - the one thing that I can't seem to do. But maybe with these little twin boys I'll just have to overcome that weakness and figure out how to perfectly follow a schedule. Another reason to love them. :) And seriously, how can you NOT adore such darling boys!!!